13 October, 2011

Oct. 13 - In Real Time


I write every day, many hours, & always make finally synching blog posts with the actual calendar date a priority. It's simply not happening fast enough, though, so here's an out of synch post...more on Santi trip soon!

No matter how much I researched about moving to a new country, or talked to folks who have done it before, or have the experience as I did in my early married life of moving often, far from home, nothing prepared me for the past five weeks. I think I passed fairly competently, acting as though I knew what I was doing...or people have been very kind & refrained from remarking how disoriented I appeared!

Each day adds to the next, with moments of clarity where you sense you've moved forward a tiny bit more than the previous scoot ahead. There have been several times when I realized I was more relaxed, or less confused, and/or thinking of the adventure in a new way. Today has been different, though.

Today feels like the first day of truly living in Kolkata. I spent yesterday managing auto rick-shaw pick-ups & drop-offs without a hitch, got myself to the mall again, had a Spanish tapas lunch, window shopped to get my bearings on where to find items in the future...all on my own. All without feeling lost.

Morning arrived with energy that'd been hiding behind all the adjustment & acclimating walls...cemented together with language acquisition & cultural nuances & gender role observations, continuous NEW! This morning I awoke feeling like me again...ready to make change & create & DO!

Thank you for all the supportive emails, Facebook posts & Skype invites. They kept me going a couple of times when I'd look in the mirror & just shake my head, wondering how I got this wild idea in my mind in the first place.

Night, everyone.

Location:Jadavpur, West Bengal, India

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